Ok, I’ll admit it. I thought I was doing a pretty good job expressing what my grief feels like to me. I felt like I knew it intimately enough to write about it from the inside out. I felt like a competent tour guide on a very macabre ride… and maybe I have been. But thisContinue reading “Because Of Patton Oswalt”
Category Archives: Natalie
My Heroes
For the past couple of months, I’ve been talking to a friend of Natalie’s. Apparently we went to school together at one point but me and memories of school are eh… not generally on speaking terms. Suffice it to say, for all intents and purposes, I met him at Natalie’s funeral. Really a nice guy.Continue reading “My Heroes”
The Gift of Powerlessness
“I just wish I KNEW there was nothing more I could’ve done” my mom said to me this morning. “Mom. There WAS NOTHING more ANYONE could’ve done. As a mother, I know you would’ve done anything for her. We all would have. That’s the one thing that haunts me. I can’t help but think, ifContinue reading “The Gift of Powerlessness”
Thanks…
“Thanks for the memories even though they weren’t so great” -Fall Out Boy Over the weekend my email was hacked. I’m borderline computer literate at best and didn’t figure it out until I got 50+ bounce back emails and one angry letter, which at the time, I wasn’t sure was directed at me for myContinue reading “Thanks…”
It’s Not Even Thursday
“How are you?” It still sounds like such an asinine question, yet I can’t help myself from asking it. I try to check in with my family on Thursdays. THE day. The past couple of Thursdays I’ve noticed an almost traumatic response to the realization of the day. “Oh shit. It’s Thursday” I’ll think, likeContinue reading “It’s Not Even Thursday”
Ouija Believe?
I talked to Natalie? Sorry, very bad pun. Not punny AT ALL. Got it. Weak intro to tonight’s post. Just wanted to give readers a heads up, as I know religion/spirituality/magic (light and dark) are controversial topics to some people and a big joke to others. I am not going to judge you for yourContinue reading “Ouija Believe?”
New Arrival!
Meet Noah. He arrived today from Waverly, MN. I wasn’t sure I’d be able to bring him home but the cosmos were in alignment and everything worked out… I didn’t even have to sell my soul, so bonus. I ordered him on Monday or Tuesday and I tracked that package like I was a stormContinue reading “New Arrival!”
The Price of Healing
Right now I’m trying to decide if Satan would take my soul for $300, give or take. This weekend, this past week more accurately, has been exceptionally difficult in dealing with the loss of Noah. I don’t know why. I’m not sure if anything triggered it or if my heart and mind are trying toContinue reading “The Price of Healing”
The Day the Laughter Died
Yesterday I read a Facebook post from a comedian I respect. His name is Ben Katzner and among other shows I’m sure, he hosts an open mic night (with fellow comedian Mike Lester on Wednesday nights at Dulono’s Pizza in Minneapolis- check them out!). He presented his dilemma of is it ok to be laughing andContinue reading “The Day the Laughter Died”
You’re Invited To My Pity Party!
I am at a loss tonight. Things are not looking better after a good night of sleep. Who’s sleeping? The longer Natalie is gone, the harder it gets. It’s difficult to even take a deep breath because grief is lying in wait. Keep the shallow breathing. Don’t make eye contact with people when they ask youContinue reading “You’re Invited To My Pity Party!”
Striving For Sanity 