I was getting ready to finish the blog post I started last night and it just hit me. Out of nowhere, like a ninja, grief attacked. I was going to write about politics, so maybe it’s not so bad I was derailed… but a photo of Natalie stopped me. Since the expo ended on theContinue reading “The Beginning of the End?”
Category Archives: Natalie
Borrowed Time
I should be writing, I mean real writing. I mean, writing or working on a piece to be critiqued and/or sent out to various publications. What happened? I needed a break and … the internet. So, I’m clicking around, trying desperately to avoid anything related to politics and I see Pixar has made a newContinue reading “Borrowed Time”
End the Epidemic Expo- Recap
Oh shiitake mushrooms… (My way of saying I messed up on Sunday and I’m sorry, see how much shorter it can be?) I started this blog six months ago and have written faithfully, twice a week. I did it when Noah died. On Mother’s Day. Right after Natalie died. What could have possibly kept meContinue reading “End the Epidemic Expo- Recap”
What Can I Say?
I’ve been thinking about today’s blog on and off, all day. What should I write about? What do I have to say? What can I offer? It doesn’t feel like much… In terms of writing I mean. I feel panic a lot of the day. A pressure in my chest about what’s left to doContinue reading “What Can I Say?”
Well SOMEBODY Must’ve Said It…
Just be yourself. I’m sure someone told me that. Then again, I can be pretty out there, so maybe I made it up? I don’t know. The point is, I’ve been sitting here for the last three hours trying to think of what to blog about that’s not super depressing. But I can’t. It’s SeptemberContinue reading “Well SOMEBODY Must’ve Said It…”
Signs?
Sunday’s post was admittedly very depressing. I thought about ending with a joke or in some other way, discount or invalidate my feelings- to make other people more comfortable. I write to honor my experiences, myself. It’s for that reason, I ended it the way I did. Understandably, my mom was worried. “I want toContinue reading “Signs?”
Longing For Nothing
The past couple of days I’ve been feeling down. More so than usual. I wondered what had happened. Is this just another part of the grieving process? Feeling like you’re coming out of it before getting the door slammed in your face, a picture of what you lost taped to the back? I fell. HardContinue reading “Longing For Nothing”
Daily Prompt: Fragile
via Daily Prompt: Fragile Yesterday I felt fragile. Small and breakable. It started out that way because I was putting the finishing touches on the “End the Epidemic” brochure for the expo on the 15th and spent a lot of time finding the right photos and making them the perfect sizes. Writing her name andContinue reading “Daily Prompt: Fragile”
Am I a Masochist?
I’m really starting to wonder… Masochist: noun 1. Psychiatry. a person who has masochism, the condition in which sexual or other gratification depends on one’s suffering physical pain or humiliation. 2. a person who is gratified by pain, degradation, etc., that is self-imposed or imposed by others. 3. a person who finds pleasure in self-denial, submissiveness, etc. I’mContinue reading “Am I a Masochist?”
Another Loss
The picture of her is blurry, I know. Fuzzy or out of focus, I know. I’m using it anyway, maybe as a way to let go -just a little bit. Dull the pain, just a touch. Like most of the state, I heard yesterday about Jacob Wetterling. Don had called and when I answered heContinue reading “Another Loss”
Striving For Sanity 