I should be writing, I mean real writing. I mean, writing or working on a piece to be critiqued and/or sent out to various publications. What happened? I needed a break and … the internet. So, I’m clicking around, trying desperately to avoid anything related to politics and I see Pixar has made a newContinue reading “Borrowed Time”
Category Archives: Grief & Loss
What Can I Say?
I’ve been thinking about today’s blog on and off, all day. What should I write about? What do I have to say? What can I offer? It doesn’t feel like much… In terms of writing I mean. I feel panic a lot of the day. A pressure in my chest about what’s left to doContinue reading “What Can I Say?”
Well SOMEBODY Must’ve Said It…
Just be yourself. I’m sure someone told me that. Then again, I can be pretty out there, so maybe I made it up? I don’t know. The point is, I’ve been sitting here for the last three hours trying to think of what to blog about that’s not super depressing. But I can’t. It’s SeptemberContinue reading “Well SOMEBODY Must’ve Said It…”
Signs?
Sunday’s post was admittedly very depressing. I thought about ending with a joke or in some other way, discount or invalidate my feelings- to make other people more comfortable. I write to honor my experiences, myself. It’s for that reason, I ended it the way I did. Understandably, my mom was worried. “I want toContinue reading “Signs?”
Longing For Nothing
The past couple of days I’ve been feeling down. More so than usual. I wondered what had happened. Is this just another part of the grieving process? Feeling like you’re coming out of it before getting the door slammed in your face, a picture of what you lost taped to the back? I fell. HardContinue reading “Longing For Nothing”
Am I a Masochist?
I’m really starting to wonder… Masochist: noun 1. Psychiatry. a person who has masochism, the condition in which sexual or other gratification depends on one’s suffering physical pain or humiliation. 2. a person who is gratified by pain, degradation, etc., that is self-imposed or imposed by others. 3. a person who finds pleasure in self-denial, submissiveness, etc. I’mContinue reading “Am I a Masochist?”
Another Loss
The picture of her is blurry, I know. Fuzzy or out of focus, I know. I’m using it anyway, maybe as a way to let go -just a little bit. Dull the pain, just a touch. Like most of the state, I heard yesterday about Jacob Wetterling. Don had called and when I answered heContinue reading “Another Loss”
Overdose Awareness Day
I feel gutted. My head hurts, my eyes are puffy, my heart feels filleted and drained. I went to the Overdose Awareness Candlelight Vigil tonight, where a handful of people spoke about heroin, opioids, overdose, prevention, reversal and loved ones lost. It was very interesting to hear people from different areas of expertise talk aboutContinue reading “Overdose Awareness Day”
Puddles
Tonight I am finding myself at a loss for words. Exhausted, I have a million things to write about but justice would be done to none. Instead of doing less than my best, here is a free write from my Friday class. Disclaimer! As we say in our family, towards the end, it “takes aContinue reading “Puddles”
Fooled You
Grief is a horrible tormentor. It mimics dementia, insanity, depression and at times, serenity. Friday was the 19th. Three months since my sister’s passing. I’d had several days without crying. Without too many painful memories. Without too much emotion… This is where the serenity came from. It was the three month marker and the finalContinue reading “Fooled You”
Striving For Sanity 